as long as im happy.

sakit hati...hati sakit..??
same different? (tis is not xfactor).. lol.

past 3 days.. so many things happen.
Friday mama n abah went to yala to visit auntie som..
she have diabetes ..and bedridden since past 3 month. n Lokman and his 13 and 8 years old sister
have to look after... gud she have children like them..
end of mama trip..~
before she goes...she send me and tok to pak lang house.. plus i want to meet iti.one of my best cousin. ....
on Friday.. was suzie birthday.. one of my classm8. we sit together in the class ..n quite bising, lol
not so many ppl at the party just kak dayah.. quiyah. and infinite group. x bape macam party.
ahah.. funny jugak..but. as long as suzie happy. =)
~~~
now my it time for my storie.. someone call me and say,
i want to be ur "betul-betul kawan" .. wat the heck la..
i just reply.. "suma org kawan betul-betul. ade ke kawan main2?? "
. dlmati *tah aper bg ku angin mlm2*..
then.. " yerla kawan betul-betul kot buleh tolong ingat2 apa yang patut.."
inside myheart say,,aaa...again.. ape benda la...
me : "orang kata nak seribu daya x nak seribu dalih.. skrg ni x de sape buleh ubah diri
kita melainkan diri kita sendiri.. " (dgn nada mcm ala2 naga) but then i masukkan unsur
bukan ala naga.. kiranya gelak ketawa dan maap sikit la..huh
tuntasnya.. i dont relly like ppl yg x straight to the point. dah ar ku jenis yang malas nk ambik paam even paam.saje malas nk paam. nak sumthing bgtau je terus terang.
nanti senang ku nak reply straight forward. aish....x lama kena sekeh diorgni..
~~~tinggalkan bab tu da settle after tekeluar kata2 ala naga...

what can i say is i am happy to get another present that useful..
before i get books that all the way from Egypt.. passing thru my bro..
buku tu .. bout.. kata-kata hikmah saidina ali .. x khatam lagi. but read bit by bit.
n ade 2 books bout women in islam.. one of the books muslimah hari esok by sheikh qardhawi.
...kalo x silap buku tu ade jumpa artikel dlm blog sape tah. i will masukan link tu next time.. dah khatam that book but. x leh ikut semuanya lagi.. heh . x tau kalau tuan pemberi ni tahu nak kata ape.. but im sure dia understanding person.. but really thanks to pemberi .. mayb i will be really...really...really... changes 1 day. amin ..................................

~~tutup bout that book.i get another book all da way from indon. waa best giler.
dah la ari2 kat umah bersusah payah ku ckp indon ngn mama n tok..ahahah.
but i cant read lagi now coz so many things to do.. but really thanks n appreciate to someone came all da way from kl giving me tis present .. "ketika cinta bertasbih part 1 and 2" by sheikh Habiburrahman el-Sherazy..... cool innit. rasa x sabar nak read..whohohoh.
~~~
stop for now.
i have to go and read couples of thing.
and last thing i want to say is .. i miss my nephews sabeera.syameem ..sumrah and seif. i love u all. ..

macam2 ader rasa

gambar ni diambil ketika kitaorg g mandi kat wangmu dusun
pak teh malik yang mana sekarang ni dijadikan tempat
motivasi bagi budak2 MATRI.
best g mandi sini setelah beberapa taun x mandi sungai..
gamba atas ni paling feveret....aaaaaa syok sendiri pun x kesah ler.
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degupan jantung bergetar seirama dengan lagu yang tah aper..
mulut x henti-henti beristighfar bagi menguatkan hati yang bergetar...
kuatkan iman ku.jauhakn diriku dari syaitan durjana..
........

pesan cikgu kepada anak muridnya..
kita bukanlah hak milik sesiapa..
mulut..mata..hidung dan segalanya milik allah..
kita hanya meminjamnya..namun badan ini merupakan amanat dr allah swt yang perlu dijaga dgn baik....
kita hanya ada iman di dada yang akan dibawa ke akhirat kelak..
..............
ketika aku membaca satu novel tentang perasaaan seorang pensyarah
yang berasa perbezaan suasan dan berlainan pengalaman apabila mengajar dia institusi pengajian tinggi biasa dengan sekolah agama..yang mana pelajarnya di pesantran ini lebih mengambil berat tentang hal2 agama dari duniawi...
....rasanya mcm penah kurasai.. ambil yang jernih..buang yang keruh.
(best giler jumpa buku Dalam Mihrab Cinta by Habiburrahman El Shirazy .ape lagi.buy je la.)
............
kenapa perlu ada perbandingan diantara org kampung dan bandar?
kenapa pernindasan berlaku pada pada golongan bawahan dan atasan?
.sebelum ni ada seorang pakcik kata..org kampung sekarang
lain x macam dulu...
dulunya mereka ini golongan yang ingin belajar dan berpelajaran ..
selalunya anak2 orang kampung la yang berjaya..smpai ke uni dan lain2..
tp apa yang terjadi sekarang (bukan semua) mereka tidak lagi mementingkan
hal2 pelajaran tambahan lagi hal akhirat..
ibu bapa lebih rela menjual tanah sawah bagi membelikan anak sebuah moto..
dan akhirnya moto dibawa untuk merempit???? aaaa....sengal.
berbeza dengan anak dibandar pula berlumba-lumba untuk mencari ilmu..
walaupun bukan semuana begini..tp inilah hakikat yang sedang melanda negara kita
sekarang.. wallahualam

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ini sekadar pendapat atau rasa yang terbuku di hati..
semoga kita semua diberi hidayah oleh Allah swt.

perjalanan

kesabaran diuji hari demi hari,
kesyukuran dipanjatkan atas kesabaran yang diberi,
ku pohon keampunan dari ilahi,
moga permudahkan hari-hari yang ku lalui.

dah sebulan di malaysia.rasanya x dapat diucap rasa rindu nak balik ke UK.
huhuh.. apa pun perjalanan mesti diteruskan..

bermula lagi episod saya seorg nomad bagi chapter yang seterusnya...hari yang dilalui setiap hari saya
cuba memperbetulkan niat di hati....sepertimana
dalam agama islam kita diajar untuk memulakan sesuatu dengan niat [innamalaa'maalu binniat] yang betul
seperti mana dalam hadis nabi yang berbunyi:

"Amalan itu hendaklah dengan niat. Setiap orang hanya akan memperoleh apa yang diniatkan" (Bukhari dan Muslim)

dan saya jugak yakin dengan ayat allah yang bermaksud :

"dengan mengingat Allah akan menjadikan tenanglah semua hati"
(Ar-Ra’ad: 38)

dari 7 ari bulan di perlis sampai la sekarang baru kehabisan kebusyan.byk benda terjadi
diantara sejarah yang tercatat bagi family saya adalah perkahwinan abg yeh n kak nad.
selain tu dapat ketemu dengan saudara mara yang lama x jumpa. paling best dapat jumpa
rakan2.thanks juga kepada rakan2 yang datang umah.bila sesakli jumpa adik2 junior sumanya
da besar tinggi dari ku..uhuk mayb tanda ku kurang tinggi..uhuh..yer ar takkan nk kecik2 kot kan.huhu..

penyakit suka tangkap gamba walau x ensem jadinya semakin menjadi jadi..
ni ada sikit2 gamba detiknya bermula perjalanan kembali dari newcsatle smpai beseri... dan ke hari kenduri
samapai ke rumah tok bergambar bersama buat kali yang terakhir......
diambil dari orang yang x bertauliah...dlm suma ni gamba yang last adalah gamba yg paling sedey.
gamba2 ni semua adalah untuk capture moment saje.. angle2 cun mmg la kuteri ambik..huh
jom tengok..

new castle airport 4 Dec 2007 - 1127 am

dubai international airport 4 Dec 2007 8:53pm

KLIA - alor setar airport 5 Dec 2007

Tunjang 6 Dec 2007

perjalanan ke kl 12 Dec 2007

first time anak2 sedaraku unite 12 Dec 2007

wedding di putrajaya 16 Dec 2007

preparing wedding at Beseri- 21 Dec 2007

new year

dh new year..bla mau update ya tuan rumah???
huh..

continue..

hadith for today:

Daripada Zaid bin Thabit katanya, saya mendengar Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda: "Semoga Allah menyinari seseorang yang mendengar sesuatu hadis daripada kami lalu dia menyampaikannya mengikut apa yang didengari. Maka betapa ramai orang yang membawa ilmu lalu menyampaikannya kepada orang yang lebih faham daripadanya dan berapa ramai orang yang membawa ilmu tetapi ia tidak memahaminya." (Hadis riwayat Ahmad, Abu Daud, al-Tirmizi dan Ibn Majah)

currently listening 2 HUJAN - Bila Aku Sudah Tiada ..suke kawe ngn lirik this song. go hujan!

welcome home n congratulation

i already sampai malaysia ..about 9 days. first 3 to 4 days my tdo tugang langgangn.unti now..time petang je atuto jadi lali. so far alhamdulilah banyak good than bad things hapen.

tomoro my bro wedding..so dia mcm ketar sikit..i think.ahaha. ape pun hope everything ok tomoro.
moga allah permudah semuanya.

dah 3 am gtg to sleep..nite everybody.

2 in 1

i just back from discovery museum. this is my second time pegi sana.interesting... gamba dah upload nnt la letak len.tp suma nyer gamba x cantik..entam je ambik td. sbb kelapa pun da pusing..(plus x reti la katakan..malah baru baik dr demam td..stil ade sisa2nya)..huhu. also found keris from sultan perak.. buleh jugak tersesat kat sini.. isk..isk..isk.
ok..leave about museum.. based on this title 2 in 1 sbb nk bawa masuk citer pasal photography and movie.

bab photogprahy ni nak
citer..sebenarnya nak try usha cammana nak ambik gambar orang kawin ..nnt nak kenduri abgku nak gak try ambik lawa..buat eksperimen sendiri.even guna pNs jer..x
kisah..janji ku cuba. tp setting pun ku tak tau sngt.. ade la juga dok bertanya pada beberapa org yg agak pro lam bab photography ni.. dpt la jugak ilmu. best2(^_^)..owh
yer nak tau byk setting kena juga baca buku manual..huhuh.. masa usha biasa la..mesti g jalan2 kat fotopages. masa jalan kat fotopages encik azzaharry othman jumpa ni..ingat nk letak kat blog utk tatapan ..ingtan buatku dan juga para tetamu..mari kongsi bersama

100 Things I’ve Learned About Photography

1. Never do photography to become a rock-star. (i wish can be both..ahah. in ur dream!)
2. Enjoy what you are shooting.
3. Prepare well for your shooting, realizing that your battery isn’t charge when you’re setting up for that sunrise shoot is too late!
4. Always take one warm garment more than you actually need with you
5. Pay attention to your thoughts and emotions while you are shooting
6. Set goals you can achieve
7. Write tips about photography, because writing is also learning (but i dont how to write*cry*)
8. Never go shooting without a tripod (buy soon..wen 2020 me jadi kaya..haha)
9. Be pleased with the little prosperities
10. Build relationships with potential photo buddies (who eh..??)
11. Watch the place you want to shoot first with your heart then with the camera
12. Always stay calm (errr....always kelam kabut me ..=( .. )
13. Know that you tend to overestimate yourself
14. Perspective is the killer
15. Dedicate yourself to photography, but never browbeat yourself too much
16. Take part in a photography community (soon..dunno wen..*sigh*)
17. Keep your camera clean
18. Never compare yourself to others in a better or worse context
19. Find your own style of photography(..i try...)
20. Try to compose more and to hit the shutter less
21. Seek out and learn to accept critique on your images (i choose critique than praise)
22. Do something different to recover creativity
23. Get inspiration from the work of other photographers
24. Criticize honestly but respectfully
25. Get feedback from your lady (lady whoooo???)
26. Don’t copy other photographer’s style (hahaha.. no promise*dush!!..someone puch me.*)
27. Be bold (u mean???*garu kepala*)
28. Take care of the golden ratio
29. 10mm rocks!
30. Take selfportraits
31. Read books about photography (carbootsale tomoro..yay baby!)
32. To give a landscapephotograph the extra boost, integrate a person (maybe yourself)
33. Every shooting situation is different than you expect
34. Pay attention to s-curves and lines (i try..er wat curves?run..*cek wikipedia.)
35. Always shoot in RAW
36. Keep your sensor clean, so you can save some work cleaning your image in post production
37. Discover the things you think are beautiful (..singing ur beautiful from james blunt..lalala)
38. It takes time to become a good photographer (yeah..rite..*dreaming about me being photographer*)
39. The best equipment is that what you have now
40. You can’t take photographs of everything (is it???)
41. Break the rules of photography knowingly, but not your camera
42. Pay attention to the different way that light falls on different parts of your scene
43. The eye moves to the point of contrast
44. Clouds increase the atmosphere of a landscape
45. Start a photoblog
46. Accept praise and say “thank you”(toce..syukran...terima kasih)
47. ‘Nice Shot’ is not a very useful comment to write
48. ‘Amazing!’ isn’t useful either. Try to describe specifically what you like or don’t like about an image.
49. You are not your camera (my bf ...is a camera..hahaha)
50. Ask a question at the end of your comment on a photo to get a ping-pong conversation with the photographer
51. Do a review of your archives on a regular basis, the longer you photograph - the more diamonds are hidden there
52. Always clarify what the eyecatcher (focal point) will be in your image (am i have evecather?)
53. No image is better than a bad one (totally)
54. Everyone has to start little (i start with free camera from barclays)
55. Your opinion about photography is important!
56. Leave a funny but thoughtful comment (i love funny..how can i leave it?oh..shut up me.. =p)
57. Speak about your experiences with your photo buddies
58. Limit your photograph to the substance
59. Participate in Photocontests
60. Post processing = Optimizing your image to the best result
61. Shoot exposure latitudes as often as possible
62. Use photomatix as seldom as possible, HDR’s always have a synthetic flavor
63. Always remember what brought you to photography (steve mccurry..innit??errr)
64. Never shoot a person who doensn’t want to be photographed
65. Always turn arround, sometimes the better image is behind you
66. It’s who’s behind the camera, not the camera (me..mee..me...)
67. Mistakes are allowed! The more mistakes you make, the more you learn! (practice make me perfect.. true me?)
68. If you have an idea and immediately you think : No, this is not going to work -Do it anyway. When in doubt - always shoot.
69. Understand and look to your histogramm while shooting. It delivers very important information about your image
70. Know your camera, because searching the menu button in the night is time you don’t want to waste (camera is myboyfriend..of course i noe him=p)
71. Shoot as often as possible
72. Believe in yourself (thanks..thanks..!)
73. Don’t be afraid of getting dirty
74. Pay attention to qualitiy in your image
75. Your photographs are a personal map of your psyche ( is it??)
76. Re-check your ISO-Settings. It’s aweful to detect the wrong settings on your screen.
77. Be thankful for long and thoughtful comments on your images (arigato..)
78. Never trust your LCD. Normally it is brighter and sharper as the original image. (u rite.LCD a liar..cant believe it..but believe it...haha)
79. Provide for enough disc space, because it’s cheap and you will need it.
80. Learn to enjoy beautful moments when you don’t have a camera with you.
81. Always arrive at least half an hour earlier before sunrise / sundown, composing in a hurry is a bad thing.
82. Try to amplify your mental and physical limits. Takes some extra shots when you think “it’s enough”
83. Pay attention to structures in the sky and wait until they fit into structures in the foreground
84. Visit the same place as often as possible. Light never shows the same mountain.
85. Print your images in big size. You will love it.
86. Calibrate your monitor. Working with a monitor that is not accurate is like being together with someone you can’t trust. It always ends badly.
87. Don’t think about what others may say about your image. If you like it, it’s worth publishing. (thanks ..yay!love me!!)
88. Never address reproaches to yourself. Learn from your mistakes and look forward, not backward.
89. Fight your laziness ! Creativitiy comes after discipline.
90. Ask yourself : What do you want to express in your images ? (ask me?who?you?..glup!)
91. Always try to think outside the box, collect new ideas about photographs you could do and ask yourself : Why not?
92. Search for a mentor. (thingking...umm...*smile*)
93. Photography is never a waste of time. (of course)
94. Every community has it’s downsides. Don’t leave it out of an emotional response.
95. There will always be people who will not like what you are doing.
96. Henri Cartier-Bresson was right when he said that “Your first 10,000 photographs are your worst.” ( i know =( ...)
97. A better camera doesn’t guarantee better images. (i want D70 ..=p )
98. Always have printing in mind when you postprocess your images. ( image..image..love it)
99. Photography is fair : You gain publicity with the quality of your images. Unless the images are stolen, there is no way of cheating yourself higher.
100. Write a 100 things list

100 Dinge die ich über das Fotografieren gelernt habe by Martin Gommel
pink color is me.. trying to be crazy as ever.. *never learn grammar??..look wat hapen.*




citer bab movie tadi ade usha berita harian..satu tajuk Filem dedah penderitaan di Iraq, ade movie baru. kalo ada kaitan pasai iraq mmg menarik perhatian ku walau tak tau ape sngt.. ingt nnt nak tgk ..leh donload rasa kalo ajin cari kat tenet.soh abgyeh ler nanti..keskesk..ku mana ler reti.
luper pulak..tajuk citer ni. In The Valley Of Elah<klik sini

*lama gila nk siap entry ni..maklum la x pro bab blog..hohoho

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cek balik email yang lama ..jumpa nie..




...5/10 rupanya kat uk diorg sambut bonfire ..sini mmg buleh main biler masa jer benda ni..x de salah disisi undang mcm kat mesia.. sainsbury depan umah ni pun jual byk..mlm tu..berdenum saje.tp best. pasal lawa2 kan.. anak sedara aku pun yg besar g ambik camera.. (terkena jangkitan mak cik dia) .. aku pun tumpang sekali ambik..guna camera nikon besa abg ja.. sini ada gamba.

first gamba ni paling best.. rasanya ni terjadi hasil bergetar sikit tgn..penah tgk mcm ni kat forum cs. dpt gak last sekali buat walau guna camera x best mcm diorg..ahaks.

bomfire...!!!

**pasni nak ni nak post gamba mmbr tentang keajaiban alam.. tungguuu... hikhikhik

dunia sementara

malam isnin yang lalu saya dan keluarga mendapat berita akan suami kak D,uncle A telah kembali kerahmatullah.
al-fatihah,semoga allah menempatkan allahyarham dikalangan orang-orang yang beriman.

sabda Rasulullah saw bermaksud " Lazimilah oleh kamu dengan berbuat kebajikan, kerana ia dapat menghindarkan kamu dari mati dalam keadaan yang tidak baik"

punca uncle A meninggal sebab cancer.sebelum ramadhan yang lalu sempat keluarga nya datang menziarahi kitaorang disini.
rasanya ada posting saya sebelum ni yang menceritakan dia baru dapat kesan ada cancer baru2 ni.walaubagaimana pun allah lebih sayang beliau.
semalam my sis and bro pun pegi ke coventry utk membantu menguruskan jenazah.rasanya ustz maszlee p juga kot sebab ada terbaca di blognya.uncle yusuf bhayat (kwn abah) juga turut serta yang mana pada malam kejadian dia and abg berbincang2 macammana nak bantu uruskan jenazah.
semoga keluarga kak D tabah

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ajal maut ditangan tuhan..syukran aku masih diberi peluang untuk bernafas, untuk beribadah kpdNYA..yallah hindarkan aku dari sikap pelupa..jadikan aku seorang yang bersyukur.aku yang kadang2 terlalai terbangun dari kelalaian mentype..
tup..tup..nk dekat kul 3am dah ni..adeh. nak p tdo da...

** =9 bape ari lagi nk balik mesia??